Year TWO.

11-11-13

Two years of marriage.

Pardon me but, holy shit.

I can't believe how fast these two years have gone. This also makes four years that Matt and I have been a couple. Holy shit again.

The older I get the more I understand "time flies." I remember my wedding day like it was yesterday. I remember meeting Matt for the first time like it was last week. And yet here we are, four years later, married, in Boise. If you would have told me this would be my life... no way.

But I am so glad it is.

It's funny how the scariest decisions and struggles in life seem so much better when you have your best friends support. I will say yes, 100%, I moved to Idaho for Matt. Because I believe in him, I'm proud of his decisions, and I want him to become all that he can be. I also know that he is getting a better education to better MY life. I know every day that goes bad, or I miss home, Matt is there to comfort me. He actually listens, and tells me that he understands. That without me none of this would be happening. I haven't regretted moving for an instant. I know that Matt and I would do anything to better the lives of one another.

I recently read and posted the article, "Marriage is not for you." Despite some others getting a bad taste in their mouths after reading, I LOVED IT.

Especially with all of the madness going on in our lives right now, all the changes, struggles, good days and bad days. I do everything in our marriage because I love HIM. I do not feel like he owes me anything. Nor do I owe him. But the bottom line is, I chose to marry him. I fell so deeply in love with him, that I wanted the majority of my life to be about him. About showing him the love that I feel. The respect that he deserves daily and in all of his future goals. Don't marry someone expecting it to be perfect, because it wont be. Marry them because you want your lives together to be as good as it gets. 

I also think our marriage works so well is because we know who we are as individuals. I love Matt and he is the reason why I am in this marriage. But I also know myself. I know how to be alone, to go out with friends, and so does he. I also know how to be a wife and be the support when he needs it. Something that is a huge huge marriage savor is that we trust each other. We are not jealous.  I have guy friends. In fact, Matt's brother is probably one of my very best friends. I text his guy friends all the time. He talks to his friends that are girls, does school projects with females and I trust him. Their has never once been the desire to check his phone, or computer, to see what he is doing. Do you know how good it feels to know your spouse loves and respects you? Jealously eats away at your relationships. I like mine too much to let it get in the way.

Don't get me wrong, it's not all sunshine and kittens. (Get it!?) We are still two very different people living together. When he is being "Christopher" {just like his mom} and I'm being Ronda {just like my dad} things can get tense. Not being able to spend a lot of time together sucks. Money being tight sucks. But the things that are good are SO SO GOOD. So so worth it.

I feel like I'm right where I belong. Plus, I got a puppy for my anniversary present. How perfect is that!?

The best thing I have done, since I was 18 years old is be with you.

I love you.

P.S. I would really like to be married at least 70 years. Because that's bad ass. I want the bragging rights, and I know we would make it.